I like to pretend...

That sometimes, I am in a Jane Austin movie.


I love love love the 1800's, while it was a horrible time for women considering the death traps called corsets, the fact that we had absolutely no say, and if we weren't married by 16 then we were done for prostitution or being a scullery maid.

However I love the dresses, and the romance of the time , although once again it was probably super super smelly, man and woman could not touch each other unless on the dance floor and that was through gloves, if you were to go on a date you would have to have a chaperone. talk about a serious third wheel.

I do love the outfits, even the guys, although I would not want to wear them, okay maybe once I would want to try on a dress , but I don't think I could wear a corset for the remainder of my life.
I love the stage coaches and the steam trunks. In fact I actually own a steam trunk, which I have made my dad move it around with us so that once I am older and have my own home, it can come live with me instead of the garage.

I want the inside of my house to have that 1800s castle feel. I have  been to the Winsdor castle in London and loved it so much, I went twice! in the same week. It is seriously so cool , and encourage everyone to go see it!

I would love my house to look like this someday:

How gorgeous is this living room!?

 

 

I am constantly looking for things that I can print, copy, rip out,  to put in my folder which I have labeled "FUTURE HOME" Yeah...I sort of have a folder where I have ideas on what I want my future home to look like. you know for ... design ideas. Anyways, if I become rich one day, I will have my house be as beautiful as this one probably is. 

This is like the steamer trunk that I have  

 

It's really cool to think that this was once on a stagecoach full of pretty dresses, shoes, hats maybe hair pieces. at least I think so . 

 

If you don't think this is absolutely gorgeous and want to try it on right now...

well something is clearly wrong with you, look at the fabric and the color and the delicate features. It is all so beautiful. 

My dream job would to be in a Jane Austin movie or any time period piece as long as I get to act, speak like they did and wear dresses like the one pictured above. my ultimate dream job. no words could express if I got that lucky.  

I WANT THEM NOW!

For right now, I guess I'll have to settle for trying to tackle making one of these dresses with my new sewing machine, which I am still having trouble sewing evenly. I guess a girl can dream huh?

I am a sewing machine

SO I just got a sewing machine last week. my very first sewing machine! is it weird that I am so excited to start making things?



 Today I made a pillow case! a pillow case! I mean it isn't perfect, I have strings hanging out and the seam is so not straight, it might not fit on a pillow but I made it and I feel so creative and good to have made it, although it took my two hours to do so. haha.

my very 1st pillow case! 

I mean I can hold this and say I made it! so cool! however my back and fingers do not agree, bending over for two hours and constantly poking myself with the pins, leave my body hurting, but now it's done and I can just relax! I want to be able to sew more than just pillowcases! soon I want to make jackets and skits and shirts and even socks!

So I bandage my fingers, icy hot my back and relax on the couch while watching my favorite movie of all time, Ever After.


I still haven't written more on my book, this is proving harder than I thought, hopefully tonight i'll get more words done.

:)

hope everyone has a great fantastic weekend!

new favorite word

ergo

Use it in a Sentence today, it makes you feel quite smart, ergo , you can get rid of those fake glasses you decided to wear today.


THINGS I PONDER :

- why spiders are so scary? seriously a spider smaller than my pinky, which is seriously small, freaked me out. I squealed and threw my left shoe at it. missed, and through my right shoe at it, missed again and ran with a book in my hand squishing it on the wall....

oh side note, don't use windex on the walls, it takes off the paint.





.... I can't think of anymore ponderings, I am quite tired ergo I am going to bed.


number of words: Same as yesterday, I was too tired to try to muster any finger tip strength  

my fingers hurt

I think I type hard when I get excited about what I am typing. I pound when I should lightly punch. Now my tips of my fingers hurt, time to take a break from writing my story!

here is a little sneak-peak at what I have written so far :)

I don’t always know where life is taking me, sometimes I pray for it to veer one way over the other, and sometimes I throw my hands up in the air and yell ayo, take me that way yo, lead me where you go I will follow. Take my hand, take my whole life too … Okay so maybe I get these ideas from songs, but point is I have absolutely no idea what I’m doing with my life, which is why, when my family moved me across state on account of business, which wasn’t really business but an international spy mission, that all changed.

            I am just your typical teenager on the brink of adulthood, but not the official adulthood, the hood where I’m an adult but not legal to do anything but buy cigarettes and porn, both which are big no -no's coming from my family. Not that I would want to buy cigarettes or porn, or even think about buying those items, It just seems that that’s the only options I have for “being a legal adult”.  Lucky me.  

SO yeah that's where I am taking this story, last night around 11 i completely changed the whole Idea and all the characters so lets see if I can stick with this one. 

word count: 1715

I am simply content

Eating my lunch in a buzzlightyear lunchbag. I've got two compartments. how many does your lunch bag have? mines also insulated. is yours?



with the wind blowing my hair, my car seat reclined, my feet draped over the passenger seat and the sun shining on my face. I am perfectly content eating my sandwich which was cut into squares. Katy Perry on the radio and a good book in my hand, I enjoy my lunch time. I usually have an hour and a half before my next class to eat and read my book, today I got two hours and a half due to my class being canceled.


yes I eat my lunch in my car, no that doesn't make me a loner. I like my time alone with my book and lunch bag. Honestly I just like to admire my lunch bag during this time. While people parked next to me usually give me strange looks for enjoying such a thing, I can't help but think... there loss, and they wish they had a cool lunchbag like I do. 








On another note, I am attempting to do Nanowrimo , however it has already started and I haven't figured out what exactly my book will be; comedy,dramatic ..... you know ... simple stuff really.  I did just learn about it a couple of days ago. This will be a daunting task if I am to finish so I'll keep a word count below to keep me motivated.  


oh yeah its 50,000 words in 30 days.....YIKES! 








Number or words so far : 10

no title for today

It scares me, it really does. I think about it all the time and wonder if I am making the right decision. Not everyone has the same thoughts as I do, nor do they share the same passion.  I think I will, then I change my mind. I think I won't, and I become discouraged. I pray for peace of mind and only hear silence.  My head is full of hair and brain, what good is that in the world? Today we struggle and today we fight , not knowing the outcome of life. Sometimes I think it's better to just be. But what do I know? I am just a teenager right now, four months to come and i'll be an adult, but what do I know? Do I follow the path or veer right or left? If I circle back I'll be right back where I started, where I am now. four months from now, an adult, still searching, still hoping, still praying, still waiting.


The day it becomes alright, that's when I will know. that's when I will know.