I keep coming up with these super exciting film ideas
however for what I want to do I need about 20 more crew members, a sound stage and an unlimited budget. haha...when can I get to this point?! WHEEEN!?
recently I am in search of five different actors, 1 to play a toddler 2 . to play a middleschooler 3 . to play a high schooler 4. to play a college girl and I need these all to look alike since I'd be showing her growing up and 5. to play the mother.
see what I mean? unrealistic for me to try to achieve on my own ! haha I can try but the quality might be ick.! film studentssssss lsfjoaislfjk alsdkfj .
I got this idea by listening to one song, funny how it can have such an effect on me since I was basically bawling writing in because it kinda hits home for me! Now I won't be able to sleep due to it. Really want this dream to become a reality.
heres to hoping!
Me in a nutshell... slightly cracked
Monday, August 8, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
let me just say
How much I actually miss writing .
now, I don't always write stories, and when I do I get halfway through them before I stop. It's a lot of work therefore I have a lot of unfinished stories. I realized how much I blogged my first actual year back at home and how much the blogs would differentiate. much like life. I never knew where the blogs would take me or what I would write about. Even now these words are flowing out of this brain surge and down on the tiny keys where my finger pads fit just right, tapping away endlessly at the squares. ...... I mean like see?What the was that? Heck if I know.
Sometimes I feel like such a child. I know that I am 20 and not considered a child anymore but the thoughts that go through my head such as ; do birds get cold? ICE CREAM TRUCK I MUST CHASE IT! and ordering disney movies to watch. There are much more but thats all I have done recently .
I also feel inexplicably odd in large groups of people. I try to speak up but I just get drowned out. much as I would like to describe it ; AWKWARD. I guess everyone considers themselves awkward at some point but I feel that way every single time I am in large groups. I've got to remember to change that.... yeah okay i'll get right on that.
something that happened to me the other day:
I was waiting in line at starbucks to pick up my drink order. The guy making the drinks looked over at me and goes
" Nice , Nice, Nice, Nice" to himself. The cashier comes over and asks him what exactly is nice?
"oh nothing" he replies with a small smile, still looking at me.
by this time I am incredibly uncomfortable and just want my gosh darn drink.
" You come here often?" he drawls out with a toothy grin
"no, not really" I reply
"well you should." wink
"oh uh...k. thanks" in the most awkward voice I could possibly give. he told me he liked my hat and the next coffee was on him, I said thanks and bolted outta there!
It was just so incredibly uncomfortable and awkward as he just looked at me the entire time, while everyone around us just watched/listened to our conversation. needless to say, I won't be going back to that starbucks again. I think he probably meant no harm by it but it was just the way he was asking me the questions and that darn half smile and the way he wouldn't stop looking it was just creee-py.
anyways in other news. Harry Potter is over therefore my life is dead.
now, I don't always write stories, and when I do I get halfway through them before I stop. It's a lot of work therefore I have a lot of unfinished stories. I realized how much I blogged my first actual year back at home and how much the blogs would differentiate. much like life. I never knew where the blogs would take me or what I would write about. Even now these words are flowing out of this brain surge and down on the tiny keys where my finger pads fit just right, tapping away endlessly at the squares. ...... I mean like see?What the was that? Heck if I know.
Sometimes I feel like such a child. I know that I am 20 and not considered a child anymore but the thoughts that go through my head such as ; do birds get cold? ICE CREAM TRUCK I MUST CHASE IT! and ordering disney movies to watch. There are much more but thats all I have done recently .
I also feel inexplicably odd in large groups of people. I try to speak up but I just get drowned out. much as I would like to describe it ; AWKWARD. I guess everyone considers themselves awkward at some point but I feel that way every single time I am in large groups. I've got to remember to change that.... yeah okay i'll get right on that.
something that happened to me the other day:
I was waiting in line at starbucks to pick up my drink order. The guy making the drinks looked over at me and goes
" Nice , Nice, Nice, Nice" to himself. The cashier comes over and asks him what exactly is nice?
"oh nothing" he replies with a small smile, still looking at me.
by this time I am incredibly uncomfortable and just want my gosh darn drink.
" You come here often?" he drawls out with a toothy grin
"no, not really" I reply
"well you should." wink
"oh uh...k. thanks" in the most awkward voice I could possibly give. he told me he liked my hat and the next coffee was on him, I said thanks and bolted outta there!
It was just so incredibly uncomfortable and awkward as he just looked at me the entire time, while everyone around us just watched/listened to our conversation. needless to say, I won't be going back to that starbucks again. I think he probably meant no harm by it but it was just the way he was asking me the questions and that darn half smile and the way he wouldn't stop looking it was just creee-py.
anyways in other news. Harry Potter is over therefore my life is dead.
Thursday, December 30, 2010
Saturday, December 4, 2010
Deck the halls with boughs of holly Fa la la la la...
December.
my favorite holiday. where joy is spread, love fills you up your entire being making you feel whole and complete. Like a thin light, love slips over you covering your cracks and broken bits. while this isn't always the case for everyone. For me, giving presents and seeing the joy, then receiving the love back. thats worth every penny I spend.
I love december, the smell of the blacktop after it rains, and the endless cars with trees strapped to their roof watching the fir needles fly in the air as the car whips on the freeway. It seems that christmas has been waiting to arrive for sometime now. I walked into Macy's a couple weeks before halloween, and christmas stuff was already being set up. The night after thanksgiving my town has a tree lighting ceremony where everyone comes out to watch this big oak tree in the middle of the town get lit up. The local high school choir sings christmas music, santa appears and the snow queen arrives. People walk hand in hand sipping the new christmas cups that startbucks hands out, walking from store to store, who offer cookies and cider. This is magical. This season is magical and people, mostly me, can't wait for it to arrive.
I have already set up a small put it together yourself tree, complete with beads, string of silver balls , and ornaments complete with an angel and presents I hand made and wrapped.
Elf is played on tv constantly, and lifetime is playing Fa la la la lifetime movies up until christmas. The best part is that I watch these movies with my family, we spend hours watching them together, laughing and crying because we are all saps for happy endings.
This indeed is the most wonderful time of the year.
my favorite holiday. where joy is spread, love fills you up your entire being making you feel whole and complete. Like a thin light, love slips over you covering your cracks and broken bits. while this isn't always the case for everyone. For me, giving presents and seeing the joy, then receiving the love back. thats worth every penny I spend.
I love december, the smell of the blacktop after it rains, and the endless cars with trees strapped to their roof watching the fir needles fly in the air as the car whips on the freeway. It seems that christmas has been waiting to arrive for sometime now. I walked into Macy's a couple weeks before halloween, and christmas stuff was already being set up. The night after thanksgiving my town has a tree lighting ceremony where everyone comes out to watch this big oak tree in the middle of the town get lit up. The local high school choir sings christmas music, santa appears and the snow queen arrives. People walk hand in hand sipping the new christmas cups that startbucks hands out, walking from store to store, who offer cookies and cider. This is magical. This season is magical and people, mostly me, can't wait for it to arrive.
I have already set up a small put it together yourself tree, complete with beads, string of silver balls , and ornaments complete with an angel and presents I hand made and wrapped.
Elf is played on tv constantly, and lifetime is playing Fa la la la lifetime movies up until christmas. The best part is that I watch these movies with my family, we spend hours watching them together, laughing and crying because we are all saps for happy endings.
This indeed is the most wonderful time of the year.
Tuesday, November 9, 2010
I like to pretend...
That sometimes, I am in a Jane Austin movie.
I love love love the 1800's, while it was a horrible time for women considering the death traps called corsets, the fact that we had absolutely no say, and if we weren't married by 16 then we were done for prostitution or being a scullery maid.
However I love the dresses, and the romance of the time , although once again it was probably super super smelly, man and woman could not touch each other unless on the dance floor and that was through gloves, if you were to go on a date you would have to have a chaperone. talk about a serious third wheel.
I do love the outfits, even the guys, although I would not want to wear them, okay maybe once I would want to try on a dress , but I don't think I could wear a corset for the remainder of my life.
I love the stage coaches and the steam trunks. In fact I actually own a steam trunk, which I have made my dad move it around with us so that once I am older and have my own home, it can come live with me instead of the garage.
I want the inside of my house to have that 1800s castle feel. I have been to the Winsdor castle in London and loved it so much, I went twice! in the same week. It is seriously so cool , and encourage everyone to go see it!
I would love my house to look like this someday:
well something is clearly wrong with you, look at the fabric and the color and the delicate features. It is all so beautiful.
I love love love the 1800's, while it was a horrible time for women considering the death traps called corsets, the fact that we had absolutely no say, and if we weren't married by 16 then we were done for prostitution or being a scullery maid.
However I love the dresses, and the romance of the time , although once again it was probably super super smelly, man and woman could not touch each other unless on the dance floor and that was through gloves, if you were to go on a date you would have to have a chaperone. talk about a serious third wheel.
I do love the outfits, even the guys, although I would not want to wear them, okay maybe once I would want to try on a dress , but I don't think I could wear a corset for the remainder of my life.
I love the stage coaches and the steam trunks. In fact I actually own a steam trunk, which I have made my dad move it around with us so that once I am older and have my own home, it can come live with me instead of the garage.
I want the inside of my house to have that 1800s castle feel. I have been to the Winsdor castle in London and loved it so much, I went twice! in the same week. It is seriously so cool , and encourage everyone to go see it!
I would love my house to look like this someday:
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| How gorgeous is this living room!? |
I am constantly looking for things that I can print, copy, rip out, to put in my folder which I have labeled "FUTURE HOME" Yeah...I sort of have a folder where I have ideas on what I want my future home to look like. you know for ... design ideas. Anyways, if I become rich one day, I will have my house be as beautiful as this one probably is.
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| This is like the steamer trunk that I have |
It's really cool to think that this was once on a stagecoach full of pretty dresses, shoes, hats maybe hair pieces. at least I think so .
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| If you don't think this is absolutely gorgeous and want to try it on right now... |
My dream job would to be in a Jane Austin movie or any time period piece as long as I get to act, speak like they did and wear dresses like the one pictured above. my ultimate dream job. no words could express if I got that lucky.
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| I WANT THEM NOW! |
For right now, I guess I'll have to settle for trying to tackle making one of these dresses with my new sewing machine, which I am still having trouble sewing evenly. I guess a girl can dream huh?
Friday, November 5, 2010
I am a sewing machine
SO I just got a sewing machine last week. my very first sewing machine! is it weird that I am so excited to start making things?
Today I made a pillow case! a pillow case! I mean it isn't perfect, I have strings hanging out and the seam is so not straight, it might not fit on a pillow but I made it and I feel so creative and good to have made it, although it took my two hours to do so. haha.
I mean I can hold this and say I made it! so cool! however my back and fingers do not agree, bending over for two hours and constantly poking myself with the pins, leave my body hurting, but now it's done and I can just relax! I want to be able to sew more than just pillowcases! soon I want to make jackets and skits and shirts and even socks!
So I bandage my fingers, icy hot my back and relax on the couch while watching my favorite movie of all time, Ever After.
I still haven't written more on my book, this is proving harder than I thought, hopefully tonight i'll get more words done.
:)
hope everyone has a great fantastic weekend!
Today I made a pillow case! a pillow case! I mean it isn't perfect, I have strings hanging out and the seam is so not straight, it might not fit on a pillow but I made it and I feel so creative and good to have made it, although it took my two hours to do so. haha.
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| my very 1st pillow case! |
I mean I can hold this and say I made it! so cool! however my back and fingers do not agree, bending over for two hours and constantly poking myself with the pins, leave my body hurting, but now it's done and I can just relax! I want to be able to sew more than just pillowcases! soon I want to make jackets and skits and shirts and even socks!
So I bandage my fingers, icy hot my back and relax on the couch while watching my favorite movie of all time, Ever After.
I still haven't written more on my book, this is proving harder than I thought, hopefully tonight i'll get more words done.
:)
hope everyone has a great fantastic weekend!
new favorite word
ergo
Use it in a Sentence today, it makes you feel quite smart, ergo , you can get rid of those fake glasses you decided to wear today.
THINGS I PONDER :
- why spiders are so scary? seriously a spider smaller than my pinky, which is seriously small, freaked me out. I squealed and threw my left shoe at it. missed, and through my right shoe at it, missed again and ran with a book in my hand squishing it on the wall....
oh side note, don't use windex on the walls, it takes off the paint.
.... I can't think of anymore ponderings, I am quite tired ergo I am going to bed.
number of words: Same as yesterday, I was too tired to try to muster any finger tip strength
Use it in a Sentence today, it makes you feel quite smart, ergo , you can get rid of those fake glasses you decided to wear today.
THINGS I PONDER :
- why spiders are so scary? seriously a spider smaller than my pinky, which is seriously small, freaked me out. I squealed and threw my left shoe at it. missed, and through my right shoe at it, missed again and ran with a book in my hand squishing it on the wall....
oh side note, don't use windex on the walls, it takes off the paint.
.... I can't think of anymore ponderings, I am quite tired ergo I am going to bed.
number of words: Same as yesterday, I was too tired to try to muster any finger tip strength
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